This is the last day of my 20’s. But I am not sad or scared. I am looking forward to what the future holds for me.
This is slightly cliche to be writing a turning 30 blog post, and incredibly cliche to be making it a retrospective look at my life but these last few years have turned everything that I think about the world on their head. As (probably) you know I have spent the last 6 months in Australia and the year before that in Bali,and in 8 weeks I am leaving for Thailand. This has been the most impressive, terrifying and exciting time of my life. I have had the opportunity to live my dreams and I am eternally grateful for that. Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve this life or maybe that I don’t really want it. I mean when you are 30 you are supposed to be settled and married with kids, right? Or I guess I should say, you are supposed to want to be settled and married with kids, right? To be perfectly honest, I can’t imagine anything that I would want to do less, than be settled somewhere. The thought of settling in one place terrifies me. This is passing no judgement on anyone who is reading this who is settled and married with kids or wants to follow that path, that is your choice and that is fantastic. I am just saying it is not for me.
I love the feeling of stepping off a plane in a new country and breathing that new air, yes, sometimes that new air is completely toxic and makes you want to run back onto the plane but sometimes it’s so fantastic that you wish that you could live that moment over again.What would it be like having a first experience for a second time; looking back already knowing what you know so you can choose to remember more the second time round?
Living in so many different places has given me an extraordinary outlook at the world. Yes, it is frustrating and sometimes very lonely travelling or living by yourself but I wouldn’t change a thing about it. I have learned so much more about myself and my outlook on life in these last (almost) 2 years than I did in the 28 that came before them. I have now realized that if I want to do something, I just have to do it. I can’t let fear of the unknown hold me back. If someone doesn’t want to do something with me, I can just do it by myself. You meet the most interesting people when you are alone 🙂
The experiences in my life are one thing but they would mean nothing without the people in my life. Whether I have known you for 20 years or 20 minutes, I want to thank you for being in my life. Every person that I meet or have already met adds so much to the trip and to my life. I have a lifetime of stories to tell because of you. Every message that I get telling me “I wish I could do what you are doing”, makes me want to stay away that little bit longer. That sounds strange but I mean I want to keep going not just for myself but for all the other people who never had or never took the opportunity to do this. I got a message off an old friend not too long ago and she said: “Man, I’ve got the travel itch..just dying to scratch it. You’re an inspiration!”. I didn’t want to put that in this post because I personally don’t feel that I am doing anything extraordinary or inspirational but I guess if I can persuade one person to leave their comfort zone and go out and see the world, it’s probably a good thing.
This life is so different from anything that I ever expected myself to be doing but I really can’t imagine doing anything else.
Thanks for reading this blog. I really do appreciate it. Love you all. Follow your dreams no matter how crazy or far fetched they seem. (Okay…that was cheesy. Sorry)